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Sep 3, 2010

Help Me

I'm sorry it took me so long to write comments on your blogs and read them all. And sorry I haven't posted recently I'm just so stressed. I know you all don't want to hear about the neatives in my life but I'm going to list some anyways just beacuse I need to write something. I promise to end on a good note though ;)
So this is what's been stressing me out:
-College (It's a little overwhelming right now)
-My Dad is dying.. His hearts failing and he needs a transplant.
-My favorite brother hasn't talked to me in forever... I miss him so much
-Money..Although my mom sent me some money to help me.
-Tyler.. It's not him exactly that is stressing me out but this last week has been the worst in our ENTIRE relationship. I don't know why but we get into more fights, haven't been as loving and passionate. He works all day and I have school all day so I know it's because we are both tired and stressed.
-My weight...Even though I know I've kept off all the weight that I've lost I still need to lose 20 pounds.
-Me. I just feel like by going to school I'm neglecting Tyler. I know all he wants is my love and attention but I have so much to do.. I love him so much. Everyone put in a little wish that me and Tyler work it out! :)

 Positives in my life:
-I was told by the only good looking guy in my socioloy class that I had stunning looks!
-I have the world's best boyfriend!
-My Glamor magazine came in the mail, and it's the largest issue in 20 years!!
-My school got canceled today because of the Hurricane! ( don't worry i'm fine!)
-My best friend might move in with me, but its a big "might"
-I have a job interview in a week! (wish me luck!)
-I get to see Kesha next month!
Okay so I love all of you and Ava... you rule! I wish all of us little monsters could live together and be equally and beautifully fucked up. LMAO. I really need you guys. You keep me sane!
-I met a girl in my chemistry class who's PERFECT! She must be 97pounds of perfection! 
Perfect Skin, Perfect Hair, Perfect Style! And I think she's anorexic.. In a sick way I hope she is so that we can become besties! I don't think she's Ana just because she's skinny but I watched her down a water bottle in class, and proceed to chug another one down! Then I saw her working out when I was, then we both took the same exercise class..She obviously doesn't need to lose weight but she definietly thinks so!


  1. i'm so sorry about your dad - i really hope he pulls through. sending best wishes for you and tyler as well. it's so inspiring that you still manage to focus on those positives...and they're such good ones too! stay strong xx

  2. Aww! Boo for negatives! And I'm sorry about your dad also. It's difficult watching someone close suffer and you can't do anything. *hugs*

    As for the positive, you're a lucky girl. You don't let the bad shadow the good. :]

    I wish you all the best. You'll pull through because you're strong. Keep it up! <3

  3. KESHHAAAAAAAAA. fave line : "just show me where your dicks at"!

    hun!!! So sorry to hear about your Dad, can't imagine how hard it must be. And you and Tyler will pull through I'm sure <3. Who'd pass up on YOU babe? ;)


  4. Hey sweety..
    Thanks for commenting.. it means a lot.
    Omg.. now that im reading about YOUR dad.. it makes me embarrased to think that i was mad at my own dad for such a stupid thing..
    I think that we forget to cherish beautiful moments with our family sometimes..
    I wish you all the strength and courage to get trough this horrible time with your dad.. :( I hope he gets better after all..

    Im sending you my love!! :)

    Love, anna

  5. I'm so sorry to read about your dad. Hope you get through it alright.
    As for you and Tyler, I'm sure you'll work it out. If you're half as lovely as your posts that I've just been reading, then Tyler is one special guy (: And besides, everyone fights in a relationship. And in your case, it sounds totally understandable- although, I know that it doesn't make it any better. But you'll get through it.

    And I like that you focus on the positives as well. Keeps things balanced (:

    From, a new follower.
    xx v

  6. im praying for your Dad babe xoxoxooxoxoxoxox

    And id be the same with wishing me and that girl could be besties lol Id love a real life friend who understood what the hell i was going through!

    Glad u updated finally babe xoxoxo I been checking for an update everyday lol tc **huggggsssss**