Failed

The day after the last post I got really sick..
Ty suggested I eat some soup..so I did and since I've been eating.
I feel huge and disguting.

I am pathetic.

Computer broke...

I'm still fasting but I got really sick after those laxies...

I probably shouldn't have taken six.

I had an unsweetened tea the next day to help so it wasn't water. :(

I've walked sooo much I'm sore and tired.

To top it all off Ty and I haven't been doing well.
I've been holding this relationship for a couple months.
He works everyday and when he comes hom he's so tired that
all he wants is to sleep, eat, shower and have sex.
Which is typical for men but I give so much that
I just want him to hang out or be interested in me..

I hurt.
My body hurts.
My heart aches.
I hurt.