Computer broke...

I'm still fasting but I got really sick after those laxies...

I probably shouldn't have taken six.

I had an unsweetened tea the next day to help so it wasn't water. :(

I've walked sooo much I'm sore and tired.

To top it all off Ty and I haven't been doing well.
I've been holding this relationship for a couple months.
He works everyday and when he comes hom he's so tired that
all he wants is to sleep, eat, shower and have sex.
Which is typical for men but I give so much that
I just want him to hang out or be interested in me..

I hurt.
My body hurts.
My heart aches.
I hurt.

Fasting day 3. Short post again!

I am going strong! Yay! 

I actually thought it'd be terrible because I exerted SO much energy yesterday but I had a long nights sleep and woke up refreshed and not hungry!

I had some MAJOR hunger pains last night at about 7pm but they went away after 30 mins or so.

Thank you for the lovely comments and Thank you for complimenting my looks although I'm certain that girl is a million times more beautiful!

I don't think I'll be doing videos every day... they suck to upload but I want to do them every five days with weigh ins.

I love you all and thank you for supporting me through this fast! Next big mile marker is day five which is Friday and I'll be 1/6 of the way finished.

100th Wonderous Post!

YAY! 

Thanks to all of you wonderful support and love over the year I've reached my 100th post!

Over the last 100 posts I have gone from 160 pounds down to the one-teens and fluctuated.

I've moved apartments, started going to college, struggled with my love life, had ups and mental downs, got a pet bunny, and overall had a great year. 

So, today is the beginning of my 30 day fast! June 20th-July 20th!

I posted my video on PT as well as youtube.

I will try to update as much as possible.

I'm not even hungry and the day is nearly over! 

Please give me support and I promise to not let you all down.

Sorry I look like crap! 

Now for some fun and happy thinspo!

Pre-Fast Thin Talk

Ravenous Replies

Liz- My darling, I'm so happy for you! I'm posting a bunch of sexy curve-spo just for you! And btw I'm a 36D cup so I understand boobs but I have a white girl ass lol I'm working on getting a sexy badonkadonk ;)

Anafly- You are so amazingly sincere! Thank you so much darling...

Starv.Art- Bows are cute and feminine they remind me of innocence :) And Just for you today's blog will be dedicated to pre-fast methodology :)

Pre Fast 

I've researched this many many times and I've done fasts dozens of times.

First: Are you up to a fast?

When fasting your body is going under a deep amount of distress. When you were born you body was clean and delicate and due to wear and tear it is extremely stressed out. When fasting you have to make sure you are healthy enough to do it.

People who are ill advised to fast are those who are pregnant, have heart conditions, underweight, and have mental disorders. Also those with diabetes. No matter your health seeking medical approval from a licensed physician is recommended.  Also deep mental preparation is needed. All through your life food has been around you and emotion has deep ties to eating..breaking these habits take strength.

The Days Before a Fast:

They say that if you take the time you are going to fast and divide it in half that is the amount of days your should be spending on easing into the fast. For example if you are going to do a 10 day fast take five days to slowly shed certain foods from your diet and for the last two days of the ease in period try to remove food entirely and do a natural juice fast until the water fast.

The reason you should always ease into a fast is because your digestion system takes up so much energy that even after you eat something your digestive system is still breaking it down for around 20 hours! It's putting in work for you all the time every day and unless you've fasted before it has never gotten a break. Immediately stopping such a hectic cycle will cause you to feel sick. And conclusively when you end a fast you should end it almost the same way you started..end fast, juice fast, water based foods, then food.

What happens during extended water fasts?

Well you lose a ton of weight and that will be the most noticeable sign. However, there are many side affects to water fasting. Toxin and Waste disposal- your tongue will have a peeling film, your urine and bowls will change, your skin will seem dirty a lot, you'll have mucus, headaches (at first) and terrible breath. These are happening because your body is addressing the toxins stored in your body. With all the extra energy that isn't being used in your digestion your body is taking that time to fix all your other problems. People have said that during fasts illnesses have been cured and injuries have healed.

I hope that helped you! And here is a FANTASTIC link with more and probably better info:  http://www.falconblanco.com/health/fasting.htm

Thin/Curve-Spo!

Preparations of Summer Fast

Hello little monsters!

I've just finished reading so many of your blogs!

Today has been kinda blah..this whole summer has.

-My brother knocked up an idiot and she's keeping the demon seed baby.

-My moms pill addiction remains a terrifying steady high. Though no matter how doped she was she didn't forget to mention how skinny I was... all the fucking time. 

I love her, still.

So I'm happyish okay with my weight but I want to do an experiment...

I want to do a 30 day fast

I want to do it for a self discovery thing..ish

Its not even about weight really although hell, who am I kidding, its a bonus.

I watched this lady on youtube do a 40 day fast and she did it to bring herself closer to God which I can respect but this fast will not be about God.

I want to see how the body works and responds to the withdrawls of food and learn how to reset my metabolism and cravings. I heard that after prolonged fasts the person can change, in their favor, how they eat and how they view eating.

So starting June 20th I will embark on such a fast and VLOG it everyday. I am calorie/fat restricting till the 15th then doing a proper preparation for 5 days. The fast till the 20th of July. I have people that will be helping me along the way but you all can help me.

I'm excited.

Well little monsters here is some kick ass thinspo...

THINSPO TIME

P.S- I miss you all.