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Oct 19, 2010

Short Post

I ate a steak last night.... Yea you guys can thank tyler for that.
I think I hate my ex, he's being a greedy person and rude...Thank god I have tyler.
Tyler is being amazing and we are getting along perfect.
I'm waging war with myself..... I might just win.
                  I need to sew my lips shut.
I want to be frail. I want perfect grades. I want food. I want to be thin. I want to be pretty. I want to be strong. I want my mommy. I want to be envied. I want to be unique. I want to be happy. I want to make myself proud. I want to be a size nothing. I want...No I need those things. 

I feel like I'm nothing special.. 
I'm just another girl, another student, another daughter, another starver, another molecule swimming in this universe.

Like I promised I will show before and after pics on Thursday and I will read ALL your blogs tonight! 
Good luck babes :) 


  1. yay can't wait for before and afters!
    you are EVERYTHING that's special. at least to us and the others who love you. please believe it.
    stay strong pretty girl x

  2. I feel the same way sometimes.
    If you really think about it.. compared to the universe we really ARE nothings.
    But to the people connected to you in your life, there is a difference. You are more than a nothing to them, you are a huge something. You mean alot to the people who love you, and they see you as something special, beautiful, intelligent, witty.

    Thats how I see it, anyhow :)
    Cant wait for those before and afters girly, I bet your progress is paramount.

  3. Mmmm steak.... There's no carbs in steak! :D

    You are everything special. And we're all just another molecule swimming in the universe, so don't let it get you down. :-*

  4. u have been such an inspiration to me and if u were 'just another girl' or 'starver' then you wouldnt mean so much to those around you, and that includes all of us!

    never feel alone as long as u have your voice! :)

    <3 your amazing and your doing absolutely amazing!

  5. You are already so special and beautiful. But you will be even MORE beautiful when you are thinner (: that's all of our goals. Just a little thinner, :D

    all my love,

  6. Yay, love before and after ! Steak isent the worst thing he could give you, you ca burn that of darling <3

  7. can't wait for before and afters!
    I'm so happy for you that you have Tyler

  8. You are you are you ARE so so so special.
    To all of us.
    One day you'll see it too, until then you need to stay strong.
    You can do it.
    Ex's are just aaargh. Mine, well the 'main ex' is a dickhead. It takes all of my strength to not beat the crap out of him. haha, anyway...please stay safe.

  9. I'm so glad things are going well with Tyler again :)
    & you're not alone- I feel like that too. I hope you get everything you want xxx

  10. I get that feeling all too often!! I always just think oh well heaps of other girls who are skinnier, hotter, prettier, nicer, smarter fitter, healthier than me etc etc. You just gotta block it out I guess. I'm slowly realising that it's our differences that are beautiful. ha I sound like oprah- nowhere near it!!

    Happy things are sorting themselves out, I'd support you no matter what- it's your relationship so only you know what is best for you! And tyler sounds great anyways :)

    love u little monster ;)

  11. what food do you wished was worth zero calories, so you'd have tonnes of it happily? i'm still thinking about eric claptonnnnn, he came over 2 years ago for a concert and the minimum price of his tix has upped by $12 each :(

    i wished i had a reason to smile.. oh gawd, save me. imma veg btw, are you? but i take cheese occasionally. (somehow on other days i find it smelly)

    just wondering!


  12. OMG BEFORE AND AFTERSSSSSSS yeyyyyy i love seeing them and i cant wait to see yours!

    Steak is a weakness of mine... i love it...

    Im glad you and ur man are getting along so well....

    Stay safe hun xxoxoxooxox