I ate so much these last two days.
I fucking hate myself! Do I have no control?! Am I that weak?I am not eating anymore, if I do it'll be either a slice of ham, or a grape, or a pickle. Fuck I don't know. I've lost 11 pounds in 8 days. I need to lose another 15 by August 28th..maybe even 20.
Fuck!
I'm going to water fast and take this pill.The reason I'm so moody is because I went to the beach today and felt my thighs rub together as I walked around. Then to top it off there was a skinny bitch there in a tiny black bikini. I want to be the skinny bitch in the black bikini.
Grr...
News Flash* I promised my best friend that I'd seek some sort of "help" because of my eating disorder, so I might be going to a support group meeting soon.I need someone here to kick my ass all day and tell me not to eat.I want my body to eat itself, why should I be it's slave and feed it. I want to tell my body: "Feed yourself you selfish fucking cow!"
I might not write another post for a couple weeks, but I'll log on you read/comment yours. :)
happy birthday for the other day gorgeous girl!!!!!!!!!! Don't leave us for too long :P :) xx
ReplyDeletepls take care of yourself ...
ReplyDeletestay strong
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ReplyDeleteomg those assholes just telling you nasty stuff, dont even read those comments, dont even bother please!! You're as special as u are little cute girl :3 so interesting so cute so unique :) today i tried to kill myself, twice and now im here, loving your blog. Love it! totally!
ReplyDeleteok 2010... to late. Leaving you my email just in case: aan.caat@hotmail.com
ReplyDeleteHoly fuck you have some mental issues
ReplyDeleteI want to do it too! you look fab
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