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Jul 12, 2011

Embracing Bones

I sincerely want to thank all of you for your lovely comments...
especially from Ruby Love Bird and Helen, and Liz you guys are great.
You all are.

So lately (this last week) I've been on a carb binge...kind of. Just an unholy amount of cereal, cheeze nips and crackers but I think I'm passed it. -Still no purging which makes me very happy.

The sadness is creeping in again. Not sad for any reason really, and not sad enough to disable me, just sad enough for me to mentally sigh all day long. It kind of feels like when you have a crush and you can't get that person off your mind only you picture cold concrete stained with ciggarettes and bones filled with dust.

I had under 400 calories today.

I took two diet pills they are like cocaine you aren't hyper but you'd die if you had to sit still for a moment.
So I worked out in between thinspo fishing, my term for scouring the internet for thinspo.
Some days you don't catch a thing like there was an oil spill on the thin community, but today the fish were biting.

I'm planning on finishing off this bottle of diet pills before Friday and nibbling bits of food till then.Ty comes home and I promised myself I'd look perfect for him. I will. My fat ass and abs are sore from working them out too hard. It will be worth it when his large warm hands are on me.
Seriously his hands are greek god-like.

I have so much to say but I will scare you all off if I write too much...

I've never been very secretive from Ty just because I hate the feeling of isolating him but I'm going to diet more quietly.. I usually tell him everything about my habits but I think I can do better if he doesnt know.

100lbs 100lbs 100lbs 100lbs
wish.starve.wish.sweat.wish
100lbs 100lbs 100lbs 100lbs

Thinspo Time For My Sexy Monsters











6 comments:

  1. Lovely thinspo! :O
    And I love your intake(:
    You'll totally get to 100 lbs, just give it some time :)
    stay positive!
    xx

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  2. Great job on your intake! You can make it to 100. Stay strong.

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  3. Great thinspo, just what I needed! I've been binging too ... And it sucks .. I know what you are feeling!
    I hope you the best and I believe in you, you will get to 100 lb, don't worry!

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  4. I hope you're being safe :) I love you too much to see you hurt yourself!
    Also, about that first thinspo pictures: You should never give up on getting better. EVER. It is possible, I swear.
    <3

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  5. Nice job, I like the not purging thing (samesies for me), with under 400 and working out you'll be 100 in no time (though those pills sound kinda freaky) :)
    xx Claude

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