So March has been a FAT AS FUCK month..
Gym gym gym.
As I walk throughout the campus I become a
critic, freak, spectator.
-She is too fat..I hate her.
-She is so skinny... I hate her too.
-(mirror) She is so disgusting. I really fucking hate her.
I'm starting a fast again. I'll video tape it.
I'm a fat fuck... I hate myself. I cried last night for hours.
(at least crying probably burns calories)
I hate myself most days...
I think I'm fat, ugly, annoying, rude, gross, worthless.
I want to be invisible, desirable, beautiful...but there is nothing beautiful about me. I purge in the restrooms you use, I faint in the gyms you workout it, I cringe is the restaurants you FEED in, I shrivle in the sun you grow in. I am an anorexic.