Diamond Dogs

I'm One Bad Bitch and I Got a Rhinestone Collar ;)

Thank you little monsters for posting such a joyous welcome back!

Well big news.. I'm going to L.A this weekend and be staying there for almost two weeks.

My family lives there, specifically my nana who's sick, and I, like fringe bangs, is due for a schnazzy return!

Anywhoozle Tyler and I are over, I still dance and I'm posting you all pics. :)

Love and Miss you all!



Darkness Falls

Despite my new life of sexuality and empowerment I find myself hating my body and aching again.

Hungry not for food...A craving that I cannot fill.

skinny.thin.thin.thin.tiny.petite.bones.

emaciate me.

skinny.sickly.tiny.small

It happened slowly..all the girls I dance with are small..100-125 lbs maybe even smaller..
I am one of the three girls who are considered the biggest...I get paid as much if not more than the other girls but I hate being classified as the curvy one.. I have a small waist but huge hips and tits.

I am going to diet... or worse.
I need to lost ten pounds....

Dollar Bills and Sweat

To repeat what I said last post: you girls fucking rule.

The acceptance I feel from you all makes me so happy!

Since none of my readers are pole dancers let me make a little list of slang words.

It's Pole Dancer Dictionary Time!

Make it Rain- means a man throws a fist full of cash on you when you are dancing.
Make it Thunder- man throws so much cash it covers the whole stage
Gogo Dancer- A dancer who dances, usually on a pole, for cash but does not strip, she is covering all major areas: tits, ass crack, vajayjay.
Hustle the floor- talking to the customers between sets to try to get them to buy you: drinks, gifts, tip more, and buy private dances.
Floor Work- dancing the the floor of the stage, shaking your ass, spreading your legs, crawling sexually, and winking at tippers.
Sets- The time you are dancing..usually 1-4 songs.
Butterlying- sewing the back of your panties to make them smaller..looks like wings,
Pole Tricks- being on the pole and acrobatically manuevering yourself around it to fascinate the crowd.
Cashing In- Taking your ones to the bar and exchanging them for bigger bills.

So tuesday will make it a full week of stripping..and im up to about $400 dollars in tips. Although I took two days off...

So i've worked 4 days... about 100$ a night on average.

I'm having a great time.. I love the girls there and the atmosphere. I think working there is helping me so much.. The money isn't the best part of working there.. you have men buying you drinks all night, telling you how beautiful you every night and you get to dress up and dance your ass off.


True enough you do get a heinous amount of bruises
                           but for 100$ a night who wouldn't endure that?!

Another plus side is that I work nights... so 10-2 im working I get home and clean up, go to bed...wake up, get ready and go back to work. I have no time to eat a ton! I eat less than "normal" and work out more than I ever have. The celllulite in my legs is almost gone! its amazing!


I have a regular now ;) He's this buff puerto rican from New Jersey lol he always spends at least 50$ on me a night.


Hopefully I'll buy those red pills again and lose more weight... I'm tone now but I want to lost ten more pounds...just in my stomach lol.


There is a dancer there who is wonderfully tiny... I envy her body. and she's had kids! she is like 90lbs... love her!

Anyways I've got to do laundry :)

And yes I'll post pics of my outfits soon!

Pole Dancing Queen

You girls fucking rule.

I did it.. I did the audition and was hired on the spot!

I'm a regular now! I'm officially a Showgirl, a Pole Dancer, an Exotic Dancer!

Let me say something on behalf of pole dancer..they deserve so much more respect than they get.
After my first night (walked out with 80..worked on stage a total of 30 mins lol) I was sore as hell.
I literally felt as though two big strapping black men beat the shit out of me with two by fours. Its been over 24  hours since my last set and I still feel terrible.It's the most grueling workout I've ever done.

But there are results immediately...other than pole bruises and bright purple bruises on my knees from floor work,,,but im tone and tight with sexy legs unveiling themselves.

The girls there, for the most part, are great.



My first actual set on my first song some guy made it rain on me... I mean literally.
And after all the years of hearing pop songs sing about making it rain on a stripper or in the club I never got it...but once I felt a dozen ones shimmer down my body I understood why they write songs about it.
It's an amazing feeling because not every girl has gotten rained on so when you do..you feel special.

Later after my set I went backstage and changed and hustled the floor..just chatting up the men, so I talked to the "rain maker" guy and he told me I had the best body of any girl at the club :) that made me a happy little monster.



So after all was said in done I made about 80 bucks my first day (but I had to  pay the house fee and tipp the DJ) Went home tired as a dog and ironed my cash.

-Ty loves it now..he went and watched me dance and thought it was sexy as hell that I could arouse every man there and go home with him.
I'm his private dancer.

Seriously we fucked on a Charlie Sheen status the night he saw me dance.



So I've got to get ready.. I work 10pm-2am tonight.

Straighten my hair, get dolled up..roll in a pool full of glitter..the usual.. lmao

I love this job...I work so much that I don't have time to eat and if I did I'd work it off easily.
Plus..as you girls know.. I love glitter and I get to wear it for work..and heels and flirt and let guys buy me drinks all night long :) Hehehe I'm a happy little monster!

Btw my Stage name is Diana...



Embracing Bones

I sincerely want to thank all of you for your lovely comments...

especially from Ruby Love Bird and Helen, and Liz you guys are great.

You all are.

So lately (this last week) I've been on a carb binge...kind of. Just an unholy amount of cereal, cheeze nips and crackers but I think I'm passed it. -Still no purging which makes me very happy.

The sadness is creeping in again. Not sad for any reason really, and not sad enough to disable me, just sad enough for me to mentally sigh all day long. It kind of feels like when you have a crush and you can't get that person off your mind only you picture cold concrete stained with ciggarettes and bones filled with dust.

I had under 400 calories today.

I took two diet pills they are like cocaine you aren't hyper but you'd die if you had to sit still for a moment.
So I worked out in between thinspo fishing, my term for scouring the internet for thinspo.
Some days you don't catch a thing like there was an oil spill on the thin community, but today the fish were biting.

I'm planning on finishing off this bottle of diet pills before Friday and nibbling bits of food till then.Ty comes home and I promised myself I'd look perfect for him. I will. My fat ass and abs are sore from working them out too hard. It will be worth it when his large warm hands are on me.

Seriously his hands are greek god-like.

I have so much to say but I will scare you all off if I write too much...

I've never been very secretive from Ty just because I hate the feeling of isolating him but I'm going to diet more quietly.. I usually tell him everything about my habits but I think I can do better if he doesnt know.

100lbs 100lbs 100lbs 100lbs

wish.starve.wish.sweat.wish

100lbs 100lbs 100lbs 100lbs

Thinspo Time For My Sexy Monsters



Fasting day 4.

OMG I wanna die... I am feeling terrible..

Still going strong though..

I feel as though I've be pissing since I woke up...

Wish me luck! Tomorrow is the DREADED DAY 5!!

(Early morning June 24th)
-I don't know if it's safe to take laxies while fasting but I did. I feel like stuff needs to come out. My stomach is flatter today...I just wish my thighs would disappear. I'm feeling okay now... I was just so tired from day three. 
I feel fat. Starving is easier than feeling fat.

99th Post

Welcome Little Monsters to the 99th Post!

News Flash-Me!

- It is six days till the start of the 30 day fast!

-It is exactly one week till summer!

-My boyfriend comes home tomorrow from his sea trail!

-It's 52 days until my 20th birthday! ( freaking out! )

- And I love all of you

Today is going to be a special post it's the 99th post! 

I'll make my 100th post on the first day of the 30 day fast which will include a video.

Today's issue of mind-blowing glittery eating disordered post will include:

my favorite thinspo just for you, a link to my thinspo tumblr, and one new picture of moi. 

But first... the bad news (optional)

-I have been so terribly lonely lately that all I can do is cry. Ty is always out to sea ( he's in the Navy) I'm beginning to hate the tides for stealing him from me. My family is in crumbles and I'm 3,000 miles away from anyone I know. I don't have any friends other than *Lena and she's too busy for me. So everyday I just sit here and remember the life I once had. I was happy. I had literally hundreds of friends...there were people who wanted to be me. All that has faded...I have faded.

The Link to My Tumblr 

http://pixiestix014.tumblr.com/

New Picture of Me

Bitchin' Thintastic Thinspo!

Anorexic April..

The days are slowly melting together. They always do, like peanut butter on the roof of your mouth, melt and dissolve. I'm starving. Which means I'm happier. I've fucked up twice in the past two weeks, weeks which average <500 calories a day. I've been in and out of the gym so much that I know now for certain how many stair it takes to get to the aerobic loft-24 stairs- 4 calories burned.

I binged on Saturday. Went for a mile walk before I did it. Bought a stuff crust pizza, Hawaiian bread rolls, and 1.2 gallon of ice cream. I only ate two slices and a cup of ice cream but I hated it. I fucking wanted to die. So I did what any good fucked up person would do. I FIXED the SITUATION. 6 pretty pink extra strength laxatives coursed down my throat like little bumper cars from heaven.

So since I'm still in the 120's I'm going to go to the gym EVERY day this week-no matter what. 

I'm on day eight of this diet..which means <400 calories.

Food Log today:

Green Tea 0

Rice cake 50

Yogurt 50

Most of an Apple 80

Popcorn 100

Soup 70

Total= 350

I could starve better.. 

But I did burn 400 calories at the gym this morning.

-This is my last week of classes till finals

-I head back to Oregon in 17 days

-Ty's family arrives this weekend

-I must be thin.

-Gym everyday!

Thinspo of the week!