Dollar Bills and Sweat

To repeat what I said last post: you girls fucking rule.

The acceptance I feel from you all makes me so happy!

Since none of my readers are pole dancers let me make a little list of slang words.

It's Pole Dancer Dictionary Time!

Make it Rain- means a man throws a fist full of cash on you when you are dancing.
Make it Thunder- man throws so much cash it covers the whole stage
Gogo Dancer- A dancer who dances, usually on a pole, for cash but does not strip, she is covering all major areas: tits, ass crack, vajayjay.
Hustle the floor- talking to the customers between sets to try to get them to buy you: drinks, gifts, tip more, and buy private dances.
Floor Work- dancing the the floor of the stage, shaking your ass, spreading your legs, crawling sexually, and winking at tippers.
Sets- The time you are dancing..usually 1-4 songs.
Butterlying- sewing the back of your panties to make them smaller..looks like wings,
Pole Tricks- being on the pole and acrobatically manuevering yourself around it to fascinate the crowd.
Cashing In- Taking your ones to the bar and exchanging them for bigger bills.

So tuesday will make it a full week of stripping..and im up to about $400 dollars in tips. Although I took two days off...

So i've worked 4 days... about 100$ a night on average.

I'm having a great time.. I love the girls there and the atmosphere. I think working there is helping me so much.. The money isn't the best part of working there.. you have men buying you drinks all night, telling you how beautiful you every night and you get to dress up and dance your ass off.


True enough you do get a heinous amount of bruises
                           but for 100$ a night who wouldn't endure that?!

Another plus side is that I work nights... so 10-2 im working I get home and clean up, go to bed...wake up, get ready and go back to work. I have no time to eat a ton! I eat less than "normal" and work out more than I ever have. The celllulite in my legs is almost gone! its amazing!


I have a regular now ;) He's this buff puerto rican from New Jersey lol he always spends at least 50$ on me a night.


Hopefully I'll buy those red pills again and lose more weight... I'm tone now but I want to lost ten more pounds...just in my stomach lol.


There is a dancer there who is wonderfully tiny... I envy her body. and she's had kids! she is like 90lbs... love her!

Anyways I've got to do laundry :)

And yes I'll post pics of my outfits soon!

Explanation

Thank you.... all of you.

 I had no idea I had followers that cared so much.

I've been a wreck lately just because:
A.) I feel like a fat failure
B.) My beautiful best friends looks a million times prettier than I will EVER be.
C.)  Finally and mostly, Ty is leaving for nearly a month out to sea.



Anywhoozle my 20th birthday is 29 days away (august 5th) and I'm sad about it. I never have good birthdays and I know most people say that but I'm dead serious when I say I NEVER have good birthdays... I'm not sad that my birthday is going to suck I'm sad because I will no longer be a teenager.

I know most people as children couldn't wait to get older and be an adult..

Not me.

I was so eager to be a teen and even happier to be one.
Being a teenager is perfect...you are old enough to know better and young enough to not give a fuck.
Like charlie sheen..only without the pornstars and wrinkles.

So about my best friend...She is natalie portman and I'm kim kardashian. Except reverse the roles. She is the pretty in pink glamour girl and I'm the art history major, book reading indie girl.
I feel so ugly next to her... It's not that she's smaller, she's only one size smaller but our body shapes are so different. Same height but she is small chested, small hips and southern bell face.. I'm large chested, large hipped, curvy ass, average face.

This is her:

This is me:



Two bodies of desire from men...but hers is the one I want.

FML

Since Ty is gone I will be hauling my fat ass to the gym and hopefully following the ABC diet.
Maybe a fast...
He comes back on the 26-27th by that time I will have gotten a sexier bod, had my nails done, hair done and went tanning. I want him to come home to see me perfect.

and he will.

I want to be perfect on my birthday.

I love you all. I truly do.