Pole Dancing Queen

You girls fucking rule.

I did it.. I did the audition and was hired on the spot!

I'm a regular now! I'm officially a Showgirl, a Pole Dancer, an Exotic Dancer!

Let me say something on behalf of pole dancer..they deserve so much more respect than they get.
After my first night (walked out with 80..worked on stage a total of 30 mins lol) I was sore as hell.
I literally felt as though two big strapping black men beat the shit out of me with two by fours. Its been over 24  hours since my last set and I still feel terrible.It's the most grueling workout I've ever done.

But there are results immediately...other than pole bruises and bright purple bruises on my knees from floor work,,,but im tone and tight with sexy legs unveiling themselves.

The girls there, for the most part, are great.



My first actual set on my first song some guy made it rain on me... I mean literally.
And after all the years of hearing pop songs sing about making it rain on a stripper or in the club I never got it...but once I felt a dozen ones shimmer down my body I understood why they write songs about it.
It's an amazing feeling because not every girl has gotten rained on so when you do..you feel special.

Later after my set I went backstage and changed and hustled the floor..just chatting up the men, so I talked to the "rain maker" guy and he told me I had the best body of any girl at the club :) that made me a happy little monster.



So after all was said in done I made about 80 bucks my first day (but I had to  pay the house fee and tipp the DJ) Went home tired as a dog and ironed my cash.

-Ty loves it now..he went and watched me dance and thought it was sexy as hell that I could arouse every man there and go home with him.
I'm his private dancer.

Seriously we fucked on a Charlie Sheen status the night he saw me dance.



So I've got to get ready.. I work 10pm-2am tonight.

Straighten my hair, get dolled up..roll in a pool full of glitter..the usual.. lmao

I love this job...I work so much that I don't have time to eat and if I did I'd work it off easily.
Plus..as you girls know.. I love glitter and I get to wear it for work..and heels and flirt and let guys buy me drinks all night long :) Hehehe I'm a happy little monster!

Btw my Stage name is Diana...



99th Post

Welcome Little Monsters to the 99th Post!

News Flash-Me!

- It is six days till the start of the 30 day fast!

-It is exactly one week till summer!

-My boyfriend comes home tomorrow from his sea trail!

-It's 52 days until my 20th birthday! ( freaking out! )

- And I love all of you

Today is going to be a special post it's the 99th post! 

I'll make my 100th post on the first day of the 30 day fast which will include a video.

Today's issue of mind-blowing glittery eating disordered post will include:

my favorite thinspo just for you, a link to my thinspo tumblr, and one new picture of moi. 

But first... the bad news (optional)

-I have been so terribly lonely lately that all I can do is cry. Ty is always out to sea ( he's in the Navy) I'm beginning to hate the tides for stealing him from me. My family is in crumbles and I'm 3,000 miles away from anyone I know. I don't have any friends other than *Lena and she's too busy for me. So everyday I just sit here and remember the life I once had. I was happy. I had literally hundreds of friends...there were people who wanted to be me. All that has faded...I have faded.

The Link to My Tumblr 

http://pixiestix014.tumblr.com/

New Picture of Me

Bitchin' Thintastic Thinspo!

Skinny, Sick, Sad

Lovelybones- Ha ha ha  I loved you comment..It's so true and I'd love to say that to someone!

Skinny

-I'm slowly shrinking but I'm so damn imaptient!
-I can see my hipbones better!
-I started drawing again but all I draw is skinny people... hmmm
-I almost have a complete gap between my thighs!

Sick

-I'm so fucking sick, I don't know what the fuck it is but this little monster is sickers!
-On the plus side it made me throw up.
-Plus side also: I don't have to eat still, and I skipped school!

Sad

-My chem grade dropped to a B+..
-I didn't workout yesterday cause I was so damn sick,
-I never have time to be with tyler.. I'm afraid he'll forget why we got together or something, or forget me.. we only see eachother for 4 hours then we go to bed pretty much. And financially we are so stressed. He works so hard, and provides for me. I love him for all his hard work. I need to find a way to prove it to him.

Today

I gotta clean the apartment, and try to make my man super proud.. get all dressed up for him too. I also gotta do homework and pull all A's so that I can graduate college and get accepted to nursing school next year so that I can get a great nursing job so HE can kick his feet up while I provide for him and treat him like the Prince he is. I love you girls.. BTW I'll be posting new body shots on the 21st like I promised! Ribs and hipbones! we can only hope!
xoxoxoxo-bye bye monsters! TTYL

Thinspo

Little Lazy Monster..

Thank you little monsters for all the comments/compliments! 

(Even though I know that I'm a huge fat whale, I took everything you said to heart.)

-So I was at the dentist for TWO hours. But my dentist is amazing! I got all four teeth fully restored and they look amazing. I was so fatigued at the dentist that I nearly fell asleep at least a dozen times.

-I wore the cutest outfit today..and I know I'll actually look good in it one day lmao. It was a babydoll/Laura Ingles type dress, w/ tights and big lace up leather ankle boots. I feel moderately good about myself now because I got hit-on 7 times yesterday! Different guys, at different times!

But too bad sucka's! I got a perfect man!

Speaking of which... Who wants to see a picture of us? If yes lemme know and I'll post one ;)

But...

If I post it you have to PROMISE to wipe your chin of drool cause he's too fkn cute! 

;)

I've had too many calories in the last couple days..probably 750ish a day! 

I know I was gonna start my fast but I have mid terms next week... 

I don't know if I should try to fast and see how it goes or just eat until those are over. 

But I haven't gained any.. I'm still hoping to be at LEAST 120 by October 21st. 

Seriously I'm gonna live of Lida, Rice Cakes, Air and Water! 

Fuck.. I need to go to the gym!

I Love you girls...seriously if it doesn't work out with tyler who wants to be my girlfriend? Any takers ;)
LMAO.
Ah.. I fucking love you little monsters. xoxoxoxo Stay thin ;)

Thin Bones

The starve bone's connected the thin bone.

And the thin bone's connected to me. ;)

I wieghed myslef this morning and guess what?!?!?!
I lost 8lbs these last couple weeks!
YES YES YES YES YES! I decided that since my hip bones were making a lovely return and my ribs were starting to show that I should get on the scale of death.

This loss is good but I want more.. I always want more... I know that once I hit 120 I'll be great, and 115 I'll be lovely but imagine me at 95! At 95 pounds I'll be perfect! I'll have mastered control, food will be nothing to me. I'll look good in everything!

I'm gonna get to october 21st and i'll be 120...better yet 115. but by the new year I WILL be 115 and no one can stop me.

I'm gonna try to water fast soon. I can't untill after monday because I have a statistics test. I want to beat my water fast record of 11 days and go for 20 days!
Unfortunately I'm going to have to eat this weekend to get this stupid studying done but I have A's in all my classes so i'm not too worried. :)
I've been monster mashing all weekend... yum yum yum ;) Well i gtg study. love you all!

Where did my followers go? I feel so alone now :(

Sex & Sequins

-Just for your information it's 4am for me right now, I only got two hours sleep last night so I'm tired and if I fuck up spelling and I don't make sense sorry!-

I just finished reading everyone's comments and blogs. Thanks for the comments, and sorry if I leave you a comment that makes the bible look like an easy read. LMAO

-To answer the question of my weight and goal weight I'll lay out my stats for you:

                                          -  (5'7'' or 67cm) -

      -My Highest Weight EVER:  158 pounds in April 2010 (yep...this April)

      -My Lowest Weight EVER (at this same height):  128 pounds May 30th 2010 (-30lbs in one month)

      -My Current Weight: 136.3 pounds

      -My Goal Weight: 115.0 pounds

-Measurements: (I think...) 38D(chest), 26.3(waist), 41.2(ass/hips)  the hourglass of fat ugh.

 So... I really want to be in the 'Hundred-teen' numbers again. I will be!

-September 10th-

Activities: Decieded to wear my new sequin flats to school, so I walked to the stop wear I catch the city bus (like 6 blocks away) and when I got to the stop there was a crazy black hobo screaming across the street at some guy and my bus just decieded NOT to stop. So I ran with a fkn heavy backpack, in new unbroken shoes four blocks and wheezed onto the bus. Got to Univ and I NEEDED a coffee, so I ran to the starbies on campus where the line was a nightmare so I ran to class (late) then realized I needed to pee. :/ After that things were great. Tons of walking and running!

Food: Skinny Soy Small Vanilla Ice Latte, Oatmeal, rice cakes (x2), Skinny Latte (again), Pretzle M&M's. Totalling around : (I always round up like 50cals) 675 calories! fuuuuck

SPEAKING OF F#CK!

*Monster Mash*

P.S-

I went shopping today and bought Winterirls! FINALLY!

Also went to Victoria Secret to get panties! yay and pretty much every store in the mall...just browsing mostly.

Tomorrow (actually today) is a big shopping day so I'mma get some rest.

I love you all! xoxoxoxo

I'd Rather Be A Rockstar.

Would you rather be a Billionaire, or a Rockstar?

It's an honest question. I thought about it all day, and decided I'd rather be a rockstar. Rockstars have a way of life that is in your face amazing. Legendary. Sure being a Billionaire you could do whatever the fuck you wanted but who quotes billionaires? Or has t-shirts of them, or posters. Billionaires are like the material that makes them famous... Paper. Easy to crumple and throw away. Rockstars on the other hand are made of glam and glitter...  

Glitter is almost impossible to get rid of! LMAO.

Anyways, sorry for being gone so long. I'm back! I had my period and gained weight... I didn't take lida while on my period. I also registered for classes! Fuck I'm so excited! Good news: I can still see my hip bones! Bad news: My stomach isn't flat! I'm fasting.. juice fasting today, water fasting for the rest of the week.. While on lida.. I know it's not smart.. 

But I don't give a fuck.

I bought some new clothes.. new shoes most importantly. I don't deserve them because I'm a fat little fuck.

Here are the shoes:

Do you like them? Well If you don't go fuck your couch.. he he he

(My Life Update: Start Univ in one week, my bf still rocks!, My ex is a faggot, I might start smoking, I'm not eating, I'm going to start going to a support group, Dinner for Schmucks was great, I'm a broke college student and spent the last of my money on boots...yea I'm a little monster.)