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Aug 13, 2011

Darkness Falls

Despite my new life of sexuality and empowerment I find myself hating my body and aching again.

Hungry not for food...A craving that I cannot fill.

skinny.thin.thin.thin.tiny.petite.bones.

emaciate me.

skinny.sickly.tiny.small

It happened slowly..all the girls I dance with are small..100-125 lbs maybe even smaller..
I am one of the three girls who are considered the biggest...I get paid as much if not more than the other girls but I hate being classified as the curvy one.. I have a small waist but huge hips and tits.

I am going to diet... or worse.
I need to lost ten pounds....
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4 comments:

  1. SamAugust 14, 2011 at 1:01 AM

    I am sorry to hear you lost your confidence. Your happiness really shined through when you first started dancing and I am sad to see that that feeling is gone at the moment. Hopefully you will find it again.

    Sam

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  2. a friend of anaAugust 14, 2011 at 8:53 AM

    just put a smile on :-) things will get better!!
    <3

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  3. AnonymousAugust 14, 2011 at 7:15 PM

    I'm so sorry hun. I guess it's a feeling we can't really escape. Chin up <3

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  4. Thinqueen1August 14, 2011 at 11:53 PM

    =( I am so sorry to hear that. I have felt like that before, I've always just wanted to be the thinnest of the group. It sucks so bad..

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